This little episode with CC has made me realise a few things. I've had a relatively idle day at work and this gave me a lot of Reviewee time to think.
I've often complained that CC is temperamental, possessive, sensitive, fierce and etc... and so was the local Indian girl I was dating years back.
While I spent a lot of time and money taking the Indian girl out, I also had to be accomodating, gentlemanly (unlike my usual self) and take all her bloody nonsense. But after months of wooing, I never even got to hold her hand properly.
This charbor was leading me around the nose and I was being pathetic by letting her do it.
Years later after I broke up with the Indian and started chionging, I was going out with CC. I've also spent quite a bit of time and money just being with her. She also puts me through a lot of drama, exasperation, exhaustion... but at least she gave me something in return. Eight nights of bone-breaking sex. Lots of affection. And she never asked for anything other than my time, Revieweedom and immortal soul. She made me feel like she needed me more than she needed my money. Yes, she was one scary chick, but it was worth it!
Moral of the story? End of the day, this is all about SEX.
Who cares if its real, who cares if their feelings are genuine? Why waste your time putting your current KTV tiraks through silly tests that accomplish absolutely nothing? Enjoy them while they last, give them what you can afford, and when it's time to let go... let go.
Just some thoughts... (not part of NBASTARD School curriculum)