Question for the LMTs and students out there
Dear flying hands,I graduated at the end of January, and while I have never thought that I knew everything, I was pretty confident that I didn't want to do a whole lot of treatment massage. I felt completely and totally not ready to do that. I was okay with that. I also looked forward to taking a bit of time off.I had one week. By the end of that week I found myself in a full time job working for an occupational therapist (not as an LMP, but as an OTA, working under her license.)I've been there since then, doing nothing but treatment work. It's manual bodywork. The same stuff I didn't feel ready to do. Today I saw eight clients. Tomorrow I have seven. Each one is there for pain management.I have learned SO MUCH! And probably the greatest lesson I learn everyday is that I have SO MUCH left to learn. Almost every day I think I need to have things planned out better in regards to my continuing education and my "plans for the future." I worry about whether I have enough training, enough empathy, enough desire, enough skill . . . but I keep showing up, and I love it. I love the very work that I dreaded in school.It's really scary to leave school and have the whole world out there with all of those options. But the truth is, graduating is just the beginning.Take your time off, take some deep breaths, get the licensing stuff out of the way and trust that the universe will provide what you need, just be open and available for it. There's a reason you are where you are right now. By the way, I didn't know where I was going to be either . . . and EVERYONE else in my class did. Interestingly, I am the FIRST one in my class to be working on bodies.Also, I had a talk with one of my instructors before graduating who told me she thought she would only do treatment work, she didn't like relaxation massage in school. One year out, she discovered that she really did like it and she actually prefers doing relaxation now.I guess what I am trying to say is that it is totally normal to be thinking about things, but truthfully, everything is so new, you still need to be open for things to change. Oh, and a coworker recently told me, when I thought I was "losing my empathy", she said, "then you will just have to find another way to relate to the person on the table." I found that reminder very helpful.Good luck to you! Enjoy your last few weeks in school.