Rivertree,
From a client's perspective, massage has been instrumental in my emotional healing process. My life has completely changed in the last 2 years because of it.
I was a victim of childhood sexual abuse, neglect, abandonment, and emotional abuse. Most of these abuses were imposed on me by males, and the compassionate care of my male massage therapist has made more of a difference than I can really express in words. I could literally go on for pages and pages, but I'll try to keep it short and give you the highlights.
I received my first massage in February of 2006. A snapshot of my life at that point would reveal that I lived in a fantasy world in my mind while going through the motions of everyday survival. I almost never went out. I didn't drive. I was totally dependent on my husband for most everything.
Anyway, when I began to suffer fatigue and body aches, my Kung Fu Sifu referred me to a massage therapist - one of my classmates. I was terrified to think of getting on a massage table, naked, and completely powerless because this guy outranked me by quite a bit. At that time I also hated my body, and this guy was built like a Greek god, so you can imagine how nervous THAT made me. I told my husband he had to come with me and stay in the room.
The main memory I have of that first massage is that the MT started me supine, cradled my head in his hands and just stayed there for like five minutes. In retrospect, I imagine he was doing a little Reiki, getting a feel for my energy, etc... All I knew is that I felt totally accepted and nurtured like I'd never felt before. Five minutes into the session, my husband got antsy and asked if he could leave. At that point I was totally comfortable, totally at peace. I told him to do whatever he wanted!
That was the beginning. Over the course of the next six months or so, each session brought me more and more into my body, and into the real world. In April '06, my MT did a Reiki session on me that brought me to a crisis point. I got up from that session with a whole new perspective. That work literally brought me down out of the clouds and planted my feet firmly on the earth. And, I had NO IDEA how to deal! I called my MT the next day, bawling, begging him to see me and fix whatever he had done - ha! I tried to describe how I felt - that It felt as if I'd been scattered all over the place, and now all of the sudden I was imploding into myself. Life had come into such a sharp focus, and I really disliked what I saw.
My MT is a life coach as well as a Massage therapist, by the way. He met with me for an hour, told me I'd been letting others live my life for me, and it was time to take my power back! He said, "You can escape back into your altered reality, or you can stand and face true reality and live an life beyond your wildest dreams!" For the first time in my life I realized I had choices. And so when I left that day, I questioned EVERYTHING, from my marriage (still strong, celebrating 10 years this year) to my job to my favorite color and music, even my FAITH (now drastically different). It was quite a process. I'm still going through it to some extent.
Facing reality meant facing the abuse that I had suffered, and that same MT helped me through that. For a long time, we didn't have talk sessions. It was all massage, Reiki, and yoga (did I mention he teaches yoga too? superman! LOL). I went to my sessions with the intention that his kind, compassionate touch would help to heal those emotional scars caused by the wrong kinds of touch by other men. He worked intuitively. Most of my emotional issues were held in my hips, abdomen, and gluteal areas. When he worked there, at first it was a tickle response, then pain that I had to breathe through, then relief (over multiple sessions). I had a lot of memories on the table, emotional releases, epiphanies. Through this, I became comfortable in my body.
In the midst of all of that, I decided that I wanted to become a massage therapist too. I did something totally out of character for me. I went home and told my husband, "I am going to massage school. I don't know how we're going to afford it, or how it's going to work, but I AM going to do it." Hubby was blown away ha ha. Both my MT and my hubby thought it was just a phase I was going through, but it didn't take either one of them long to realize I was serious.
I think that being touched in a healthy, nonsexual way on a regular basis is what kept me present in my life through all of these changes.
I graduated from massage school last august, got my license in September, leased my first office in October. I drive now. I'm independent when I need to be, strong and confident. Totally unlike who I was before. And, last month I leased my very own office. Next month, I'm leaving my day job to do massage full time.
My mind can't quite grasp how far I've come so quickly, but honestly I wouldn't be who I am today if it wasn't for the massage work that was done with me.
...wow that was quite a ramble... I'm going to feel really dumb if that totally wasn't what you were looking for. LOL
I'd be happy to answer any other specific questions if you have them.
Emily