I am a student with ONE day left of school!!!! I am so excited!!! But... I have been there done that, and told that as well. I was told by an instructor during my clinical evaluation that I was "mechanical". Looking back, she was right. At the time I thought I was hot poo. I may? have been but I was thinking more about my sequence and what came next and am I doing this right? and what if she doesn't like my pressure? did I check in with the client? Oh crap!, I forgot the bolster again.... Anyway. The list went on and on. Now, I'm one class away from finishing, I've got 41 hours of clinicals under my belt and I find that I'm not thinking about my sequence at all.What suprised me most about MT school was that I've learned that there is no real "right" way to give a massage. (I thought that was why I was going to school, to learn the 'right' way!) There are techniques that need to be performed correctly, draping procedures that should be followed but in the end it's all about intent (focusing on the client and his or her body and what they need). At first when I heard my instructors speak of focus and intent I thought they meant to pay attentin to what I was feeling (knots, etc.). But now, I know it's about closing your eyes, relaxing into your own body, and let your hands talk to your clients body and listening/feeling for the response. In clinicals I watch the whole body language of the client. I watch their hands to see if they tense up, I listen/watch for deeper breathing, supine I watch their face for an eye twitch, a furrowed brow. Don't worry if you don't see it, or feel it, or 'read' it. It will come when you feel confident in the basics. In the meantime, put on some music, some candlelight, get the oil out and work on a willing participant. It shouldn't be too hard to find one.